There are times when you feel something. Something special. You know especially when you are quoted saying, “I haven’t felt like this in a long time.” Chances are we’ve all felt like it, a lot more recently than we say, we just don’t remember. Anyhow, trying to instill logic into a scenario involving feelings seems moot, as feelings are not easily pushed aside for a logical explanation.

In life, we should always fight for what our hearts tell us. Sometimes that doesn’t fall into the restraints of right and wrong. To give up is to acknowledge the fear of the unknown, and not to challenge yourself. Not to push yourself to new experiences and give yourself a jolt of rejuvenation in life. To keep ourselves in the dark and dusky crevices of the comfortable is to victimize ourselves of the beauty of life. It’s not right, in any sense of the word.

Your life is yours. At the end of the day, you have to live with yourself. People come and go, but you will always be there for you. What are you going to say to yourself about that thing you wanted to do, but never did because you were afraid of the consequences? In 10 years, you’ll look back and say, “What if?” Why subject yourself to the “what if’s” in life, when you can seek it out and find out at that time?

With all the over stimulation of today’s society, what we want may seem to be what’s just in front of us. That beautiful someone across the street. They’re out of my league. I don’t deserve them. Well how do you know unless you go over and say hello? A man and a woman are meant to be together. Looks are a means of initial attraction. They’re only out of your league because you tell yourself that. Just do what your ancestors did, and go after what you want.

What about that solemn video game that makes us feel good? These video games are just extensions of real life for the lazy. Not to be hypocritical, as I enjoy a video game once in a while. But only for the enjoyment of life’s actual limitation. I can’t fly, for I don’t have wings. I can’t shoot people without subjecting myself to the conformity of a military system. In a legal sense, anyway. What we do from the comforts of our own home is adventure out into a world created for us, when the real world is waiting to be challenged by you.

For once in my life, I know exactly what it is I want. I see future with it. And yet, it’s an arm’s length away, and only getting farther. But I won’t stop fighting. I won’t stop fighting for something that I feel, believe, and know, is what I want. I won’t give up.

Well, maybe I’ll give up for the duration of the Netherlands vs. Cameroon game. Yea, you can wait. Where’s my vuvuzela…

Now in 2010, with the disaster of the Deepwater Horizon, our governments around the world are vowing to end the need of fossil fuels, and to make alternatives a reality in everyday life.

The need for fuel and energy has been an ongoing battle among money-hungry companies for years. Each employee blaming the responsibility on one person higher, that if the company went down then their lives would end, the need for a solid paycheck to support their families and themselves always a constant problem. When does it become a moral issue over a living issue? Does it ever? I know that if the company I worked for was doing something I found was challenging my moral standings, I would have no problem shifting blame around so as to make myself feel comfortable staying.

So what is the issue here? Why are these large oil companies still making billions of dollars every day (the losses due to the Deepwater Horizon disaster are but shavings off the wheel of cheese) when all our governments and politicians preach the fall of fossil fuels to the rising alternatives?

Fossil Fuel consumption has been a way of life for almost a century. There is way too much money to be made in it. The final question is: When will we finally realize the error of using damaging energy sources and make that change? Will morality ever triumph over money? When there is money being lost, there is someone willing to forget their morals.

What a life we live. I’m going back to my Meditation for Dummies.

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It can however, be a place of fear and tribulation. One can get horribly lost in the mind, in all its wonder and glory. You can loose touch of the conscious self, the outer world.

In today’s over stimulated society, where TV and the internet have facilitated a new way of releasing the tensions of real life, it can be hard to sometimes listen to your mind, and slow it down.  The new age movement of yoga and meditation seeks to relax your brain’s mess of thoughts, but is it enough? Is society and life today really much different than it was 2,000 years ago? Marcus Aurelius wrote of the busyness and stressful lives of the roman empire, only to form Stoicism in its original form. To seek out tranquility and peace of the mind and life.

In seeking too far into the depths of your mind, and attempt to put reason to each and every thought and idea, is only to seek a means of insanity. Life’s mysteries, such as the constant seeking of a factual and reasonable explanation of God, the inner workings of the world of dreams, and the understanding of one’s own train of thought, are things which we as human beings have yet to establish strong holds of. Since the beginning of written history, humans have come to seek their existence and the mind. To do so in an uneducated matter is in a way, resembling the first of our forefather’s same struggle of their quest for answers. Should we not research and examine the history of these quests?

This borders on both Human Psychology and Philosophy. There is nothing wrong with seeking out these answers. But in doing so do not overstimulate your life with technology. Instead enjoy what there is out in the world. Learn the history of our ancestors and their own discoveries of the same situations we suffer every day before you continue to do so yourself. It will strengthen your own search for answers. To lose yourself in your own mind, and begin to suffer the horrors the mind really can develop by doing so, is ultimately creating your own personal hell to which you will have no way out.

Out lives are short, and our ancestors’ were even shorter. Learn to strengthen yourself, live your life and enjoy what this world around us offers, and don’t become charged with a struggle so many have lost will in fighting. To snap out of this grim place is to realize that life really is precious, and not always worth self discovery.

I’m not saying we should not seek our the answers of life on our own time, nor am I saying we should leave it to better minds to do so for us. I’m saying make sure you have the proper knowledge and depth of what our ancestors have already established, and create your own understandings of these discoveries before attempting to search out through your own mind. One cannot learn all there is to learn about the mind by only searching out their own, on their own.

Keep your hats on tight, and your heads on even tighter. This road is windy, and it always gets worse before the light creeps through the trees. If you see me on the side of the path smelling the flowers, you’ll know I took my own advice.

Keep on truckin’.

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Not to be a Grinch here, because I’m not. I’m a kind, generous person all throughout the year. Unlike others, I don’t try to fit all my random acts of kindness into one month just because the media tells us to do so.  I’ll admit, birthdays and Christmas I always attempt to best myself from the previous year without spending overly much.

This year however, I’ve spent 3 full hours over the past 2 days, walking the mall, only to find nothing of which I originally went in for regarding presents, but have ended up leaving with something for myself both times. I actually feel guilt when I get home. Me! Feeling guilty! What difference should it make being the Christmas season to any other day of the year? I’m always one to randomly purchase items that I feel will somehow be beneficial to my day to day, and yet at this time of the year, prices are actually quite reasonable, so I really shouldn’t feel bad.

Perhaps it’s because my original reason for visiting the malls was to purchase gifts, rather than gifts for myself.

So anyways, back on topic here. The amount of people hording over this year’s ultimate toy, have-to-buy gadget, this year’s designer jeans, shirts, etc.. Sure, you’re trying to be generous to people that you spend time with. Family, friends, roommates, neighbors, that guy over by the dumpster, ya know… the special ones.

Shouldn’t this time of year be more focused on being together with your friends and family during the cold, sitting around discussing the end of the year? That’s what I get out of it. Not the hyped up “MUST BUY GIFTS” aspect of it. Christmas is the greatest marketing ploy ever! Of course the stores will bank on it. Lately they attempt to bank on everything. What was this latest 3 day sale, Black Friday that happened in the states? It’s made up!

Ah, well, Lets all remember to spend time with those that matter, and buy them all a sack of potatoes for Christmas, just be a jackass.

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Hanging there.

Trembling away goes the hand in reach,
Till no longer can it hold it’s composure,
Waiting for you to touch back.

But nothing.

Nothing comes for the one who waits,
Patiently counting stains of misfortune.
Discoloration and defeat.

And yet, waits.

Why lay dormant and tranquil,
When it’s there for the taking.
Mocking silently, submissively.

Always out 3 inches of reach.

But is it really worth it? We all make ourselves happy with the theories we are able to come up with at some point in our lives, but only to leave them in our wake and move on. we think, “Let the men who get paid to ponder” to solve the questions of the world and life. In thinking so deeply, we become hostile to our own kind, realizing the sheer ferocity and pain that we can and do inflict. Realizing that life is all a sham, that our way of life is just a made up belief to keep ourselves from falling into a depression.

There is an upside. In keeping your mind appeased with subtle answers and theories, without going too far into the unknown, we relieve ourselves of pain and anguish of sorts… we can live together, and not separated. Although we are a vicious set of creatures, we are still united to the end.

Oh well. You’re all doomed anyway.

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We’ve reached a point in our evolution where we’ve begun to evolve on our own, via teaching our experience and expertise to the next generation. In doing so, the human race has been able to make gigantic leaps in technology within a very short time. An abundance of population greatly increases the productivity of such advances. I call this, “Synthetic Evolution” or, “Man-Made Evolution.”

We as a species have been able to advance faster than natural evolution can keep up. Perhaps it is a specific point within the past 6,000 years that brings upon this change in the human race. We have seen the creation of agriculture, the discoveries of metals and clay, the understanding of governing, all being major leaps of the human race. With the creation of the technology age, where information is available to anyone at any time, we’ve been able to further ourselves more so in the past 50 years than we ever have since before recorded history.

So what is next? We’ve discovered how to harness nuclear fission, electricity, mass production, transportation, space exploration. Where does the human race go after this? Perhaps it is time to start thanking mankind for discoveries, instead of an invisible man in the sky, and delve further into the mechanics of our natural selves without the god element. Maybe it’s time for world peace, which in turn would only increase our goals of expanding our knowledge. But…

If only it were in us to be civil with one another. Humans really are just animals. We still hold ourselves as proud mammals, whom only want to survive and continue our species. If we feel the slightest danger to ourselves or family, we fight. It’s just our primal nature. World peace is not within arms length nor ever will be. It is compromise that will be our biggest battle.

This Synthetic Evolution of ours really is humanity’s largest struggle to come. What we are becoming capable of doing is something extraordinary, and to have it all come crashing down because of a holy war, or a political debate, would be ludicrous. This is where we must learn to compromise for the sake of humanity’s continued exploration.

Lets take it all in stride.

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One zealous eccentric seeks to find reason to questions not needing answers. Problems not in need of resolution. Why, you may ask, would one delve into such irksome subjects, void of any substance. Is it a matter of boredom? Maybe a sense of madness. Does it matter? In what situation would one worry about another’s mental well being, when their own lingers close to daft and maniacal. What signs does one need before they become generally concerned for this person? Can one not live their lives apart from social acceptance without ridicule and mockery? What exactly categorizes one as moonstruck? Is everyone the same? Or is everyone different like everyone else?

One comes to ask themselves, why does the subject of one’s own sanity come into question from friends and family, when a sense of social discrepancy and unbalance is quite evident on one’s mind. When one can see the proverbial Jenge tower of society being toppled over by one insignificant push, pull or prod, does that not give reason to a waning sanity? Is it sanity everyone has, to go to school to get a job, work for 50 years, then retire, only to be too old to really live the life you could have? A character in the movie ConAir puts it best. “What if I told you insane was working fifty hours a week in some office for fifty years at the end of which they tell you to piss off; ending up in some retirement village hoping to die before suffering the indignity of trying to make it to the toilet on time? Wouldn’t you consider that to be insane?”

In a manner of speaking, there are obvious levels of insanity. Levels that are reached by geniuses and scholars. These are the levels of insanity that are being overlooked. If one is so smart as to give up their own sanity instead of try and coupe… what reasons would someone have to do it? It angers me to think that some of the smartest people in the world, may also be some of the craziest.

Does one think intelligence is brought upon them via an omniscient being? Is it a certain chain of events that leads to a specific thought pattern, creating much more susceptible thinking? Maybe it’s genetics, or environment, or food. One knows that intelligence is measured by a flawed system. Measured on a system of subjects taught in school. It is more a measurement of one’s thought pattern and solving capabilities. Not someone’s full potential. Thought is much more than just intelligence of common knowledge. What of the question makers? Are those not the smartest of all?

It is absolute bullshit when people say not to judge others. It is human nature to judge, not only others, but one’s self as well. It is the same with most socially unaccepted matters. Human nature cannot be described to you via movies, TV, news, or the internet. It is something you have to dive into yourself for. Explore your own consciousness, your own subconsciousness. If there are really 6.5 billion people in this world, do you really think you’re an individual? That you’re different than everyone else? It goes without saying that everyone has their own feeling of difference among their peers. Different upbringings, surroundings, environments, etc.. However, that is all it is.

Only you know how to live your life happily and prosperously. If you’re sucked into society and a dead end job that you hate, it’s never too late to start new. Don’t believe people when they say money doesn’t bring you happiness. Of course is does. It’s how you’re able to explore, to do things that make you happy. The fact that you must spend 40+ hours a week working in order to do so is absurd, but what choice do you have in society today? The most you can hope for is inheritance.

So I implore you, go out, live your life, judge who you want, flirt with who you want, love what you want, work where you want. Don’t let social acceptance bind your thoughts and actions. Do so what you see fit, to the guidelines of human nature. Let that be your rules. One doesn’t need the help of an invisible entity to have morals and restrictions. The only help you need is from yourself. Look deep into your primal state and set your morals on that. Build on them from there. Live life to what you think is the best route, not what others tell you. Life can only be lived to what extent you give it.

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Nothing beyond words. I do however have a fancy music player spouting a variety of metal, trance and chill, but nonetheless, words. Why are there so many blogs out there? Are we all so numb to the social world that we must explain our thoughts and personal endeavors via online journal? I understand people mimicking the behaviors of a sociopath, believing they can subdue their need of social connection with online communication. It seems an easy way to divulge your feelings without any direct ramifications. To negate the connection of in-person contact is ludicrous. Such ignorance can lead to problems in career and relationships and even create a sociopath of themselves. You must understand, I’m talking of young persons perhaps on their way to becoming a sociopath. Those who can’t seem to find belonging, yet discover it online. It can help someone get through school if they have no other release or person to talk to, but if the behavior continues beyond school into the work place, it can raise questions.

My reasons for posting on a blog are a little more complex.

What is the purpose of this blog, you may ask. If only it were as easy as an explanation. I really don’t know what this blog is. Possibly a way to post random rantings of political discourse. Perhaps what my bowel movement looked like on Saturday morning. I’m quite intrigued to see where this goes and how well it’s received.

Only time will tell.

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